Motivation

For lack of a better word I have none. Motivation that is. Each day is like the next. Work, school, work, homework. Sometimes I wonder what I was getting myself into by taking on another job while still in school. I love my new job don't get me wrong. I just feel like if I am not working or doing homework than I am sleeping. There just does not seem to be enough time in the day.

I have been wanting to take some pictures of myself and post them on here. More as a motivation to me so that I can see them every day and know that I need to make a change in my life. I am unhappy with the way that I look and just dont seem to have the motivation to stick with eating the way that I should be. I know that if I were to eat better then I could lose the extra weight that I am carrying. There are nights when I go home and just cry because I do not feel like I am good enough for Geoff. He is so loving and caring about this whole thing and would give me anything that he could to make me feel better. The problem is that there is nothing that he can do to fix me. It is just something that I will have to work on.

On a side note. I have been a part of the Biggest Loser Challenge over at the Washington City Community Center. I love being able to go and work out there. The place is amazing. I just wish that I could get my eating on track. But I just love food. In Geoff's words I love everything that is bad for me and hate anything that is good for me. I guess I better learn to love to eat my veggies.

Sorry to be such a debbie downer but I want to document how I feel.

February 2012 already?

So it is hard to believe that we are already in February. I have been such a slacker at blogging and I am sorry. I always say that I am going to try harder and I never do. So I will not be making that promise this year. Instead I am going to possibly just have days when you will get a 6 month update or something like that. It is hard to blog when there is really nothing going on in your lives.

Geoff and I are still the same, we are both working. I am still attending Dixie. I will be finished after this semester so that is something to look forward to. We are both running in some races. I am on the work computer right now so when I get a chance I will upload some pictures from the last couple of races that we did this year. We have a big one coming up in a couple of weeks that I am looking forward to.

That is about all that we have going on. Pictures to come!

One day at a t time

That is how we are living life right now. It really seems unfair all the bad things that have happened to us lately. But then I sit back and remember that it is only stuff. We are healthy and in good spirits considering all that has happened. Each day brings a different mood and some days they are not good ones. When I find myself getting into the grumps or "Turning into the Hulk" as Geoff likes to call it, I have to stop and list all the things that we do have and what I am grateful for. Losing the car really has been a humbling experience for the both of us.

We still have not heard much from the LVPD but we have high hopes that something will turn up after the holidays. If only they could get us a case number so that our insurance can do there part. Even if the car is not recovered it would be nice to get the money from the insurance. At least we would no longer be playing the waiting game like we are now. I think that is the worst part at times. I feel like they have done nothing to help us and that they really dont care that our car was stolen. Geoff kindly reminds me that we are not the only people that were in Vegas that weekend and most likely not the only people to have a car stolen or broken into. This tends to calm me down for a bit, however, I seem to get worked up much easier these days.

Its hard to believe that school will be starting again in just a few short weeks. I was hoping for a nice relaxing time off. I had plans to work on some projects and get some stuff done around the house. Now all I want to do if I am home is lie around and do nothing. I fear that depression has struck our household and it will take some much need sunshine to get rid of it. To bad it is so dang cold outside. It just makes me want to stay inside more wrapped up in a nice warm blanket.

One a brighter note, we were able to go out to Tuachan last night and see the live Nativity. To sum up the night I am going to quote Geoff. "I have never been more happy to drive thirty minutes to sit in the cold for a seventeen minute program" Yes it was freezing and we were not prepared. The family time was great though. I love getting to spend time with my sisters. When we are not disagreeing on something we really do have a great time together. I am looking forward to the rest of the weekend that we will get to spend with our families.

And last but not least! I am going to be an aunt again! My sister Tiffanie and her husband are going to be having another little girl in May! I cant wait. This new baby will be my fifth niece! I still have no nephews so the race is on (on both sides of the family) to see who has the first boy!

Life can be unfair

I know that it has been a while since I last posted and I do hope to do an end of year wrap up in the next week or so. But for now I have wanted to document how life can be so unfair at times. For Geoff's birthday this year I got us a two night stay at Harrah's in Las Vegas. I was so excited for this trip school had just ended for the semester and I was really in need of a break. Not to mention that I got to spend the weekend with Geoff and that we were going to take in a couple of shows. Friday night was amazing. We went to the Legends in Concert show which is where people do impersonations of celebrities. It was so fun there was singing and dancing and they even did some Christmas songs. Geoff and I had a great time. We decided to play some cards and hit the slot machines for a while. Saturday morning rolls around and guess what? The car is gone. Not just gone but totally missing. Geoff is now without a car, cell phone, or keys. We have no idea what happened and the Las Vegas Police department were not a lot of help. We called them and they told us that with out a plate number or vin number on the car there was nothing that we could do. So we packed up and rode the shuttle home. Not the way I wanted to end my vacation. We got home got the information the police department wanted and then called them. They told us that we needed to go the the police station in St. George so that we could verify that we are who we said we were and that the car is really ours. So we get in the car and head to the police station. Of course this is Utah and nothing is open on Sundays. The hits just keep coming and coming. We now have to wait until today to be able to file a claim. That is two whole days that the car has been missing and nothing has been filed on it yet. Do you know how far away a car can get in two days. I am beyond frustrated that someone would steal a car, but the fact that the police station is closed on Sundays just boggles my mind. I understand the whole taking the weekend off but really?? After we report the car today we will just have to wait and see. I hope that the car turns up. I dont even care what condition it is in as long as they find it. This is the end of a chapter in our lives and we would really like to just put it behind us, if that is even possible. Sorry that this is just a rant and rave but I wanted to document it.

Crossfit day 8

Todays work out sucked so bad. I went into it feeling so great because I had done RX yesterday. Boy was I wrong. I did  not think that I was really sore until I started working out. My whole body aches. I did however manage to get through the least amount of rounds that was available. I did five rounds. Not great but at least I did finish. The work out was
15 ring dips
15 pushups
20 situps
10 Burpee board jumps
 I finished in 32 minutes and 12 seconds. Not a great time but at least I managed to finish. Most of the above workouts are easy to understand but you may be thinking what is a burpee board jump, well it is when you jump down into a pushup and catch yourself before you hit them ground, then you push with your legs and arms to get standing back up, then you would have to long jump out in front of you as far as you could go. After ring dips and pushups my arms were dead. That was only  one round you had to go again and again. As mentioned I did five rounds. I was somewhat disappointed that I could not do the seven rounds that were scheduled. But I guess there is always next time. So here is looking forward to tomorrow. It is the grand opening of Zion Crossfit and they are going to have a party. The radio station will be there and everything. I am pretty excited about going.

Crossfit day 7 or something to that effect

So I have been a slacker and have not attended crossfit since Saturday morning. But in my defense it was the holiday and I did do the 5K workout on Monday. But I slacked off and did not go Tuesday. Hence the reason that today Wednesday is the seventh day and not the ninth.
Today's WOD was
AMRAP in 20 min of: (as many rounds as possible)
5 sumo deadlift high pulls 45/75
5 thrusters 65/95
10 toes to bar 
25 double unders
Man it was a killer. I did 4 complete rounds and then did all but 10 of the last 25 Double Unders. I was so happy because I did all of the double unders as double unders and not singles. That was a big accomplishment for me. It did end up taking me more time to do it that way though.  Oh ya and I did everything at RX. That means that I did all of the rounds at the listed weight. Totally awesome! I am happy with what I did today and hope that I am not too sore tomorrow to get a good workout in.

Crossfit Day 6

I have made it a week. I can not believe that it has already been a week since I started Crossfit. Today's workout was brutal. You worked with a partner and went through different stations. I will not bore you with the details today because I am too tired and there are not really any numbers to post. I am just glad that I have made it this far. Here's to hoping for another great week. Geoff and I have just been laying around the house today. It was much needed and I am glad that we were able to do it. Tomorrow will be more of the same except we will be having dinner at his dads and hopefully hitting the pool. My Jamaica tan has already faded and I need to get some more sun. I hate feeling like I have no tan. So hopefully we will get to be outside some this weekend.