Friday, February 24, 2012

Motivation

For lack of a better word I have none. Motivation that is. Each day is like the next. Work, school, work, homework. Sometimes I wonder what I was getting myself into by taking on another job while still in school. I love my new job don't get me wrong. I just feel like if I am not working or doing homework than I am sleeping. There just does not seem to be enough time in the day.

I have been wanting to take some pictures of myself and post them on here. More as a motivation to me so that I can see them every day and know that I need to make a change in my life. I am unhappy with the way that I look and just dont seem to have the motivation to stick with eating the way that I should be. I know that if I were to eat better then I could lose the extra weight that I am carrying. There are nights when I go home and just cry because I do not feel like I am good enough for Geoff. He is so loving and caring about this whole thing and would give me anything that he could to make me feel better. The problem is that there is nothing that he can do to fix me. It is just something that I will have to work on.

On a side note. I have been a part of the Biggest Loser Challenge over at the Washington City Community Center. I love being able to go and work out there. The place is amazing. I just wish that I could get my eating on track. But I just love food. In Geoff's words I love everything that is bad for me and hate anything that is good for me. I guess I better learn to love to eat my veggies.

Sorry to be such a debbie downer but I want to document how I feel.

1 comment:

Julie said...

colio - you hit my feelings on the spot too - wish we lived closer so we could help each other out! I love everything that is bad and hate everything that is good but my friend introduced me to a lower calorie dip for veggies and now I have been eating a ton more veggies. Anyway instead of ranch even light or whatever buy the light or low fat sourcream and a Ranch "Dip" dry packet - then mix together - put in the fridge for an hour - it's so good! I only normally like carrots haha but now I am eating broccoli, cucumbers and green and red peppers. I actually really like cucumbers now! anyway - I probably still eat too much dip haha but i'm getting more veggies in. love ya girl!